Alexandria Vagabondess
Alexandria Vagabondess
Me: So, what are you all about?
Them: *thinks for a bit* I'm all about experiencing things. And balance.
Me: Between "experiencing things" and "balance", which one is more important to you?
Them: Oooo... hmm... *thinks some more* Experiencing things.
Me: Why?
Them: Because being balanced or unbalanced is something I can experience and there is value in both.
Me: What's valuable about being unbalanced?
Them: You learn to fall. We all do. it's inevitable. But also, it gives us the chance to either fall or learn to balance better.
Me: What do you mean by "balance" in this context?
Them: I mean balance in all things. As both a law of the universe and one we as humans are not exempt from being affected by. The universe on a fundamental level craves balance. Wind is literally just the movement of particles from areas of high pressure to low pressure in order to balance out. I think we as humans also crave balance within our lives and ourselves.
Me: How do you achieve balance in life?
Them: By really listening to myself. My body. My mind and thoughts. If something feels unbalanced, I address it. I literally imagine the scales inside my head or chest or just in general and I think of what's bothering me and i think of how to counter act it. Depressed and cold all the time? Go for a walk outside and get 10 mins of sun. Super sleepy or tired? Drink some water or eat a snack. Lonely? be among friends. Overstimulated? spend some time alone in a cool dark place. It's simple in concept, but hard to actually do.
Me: You seem pretty balanced, any times where you just can't figure out what's wrong or how to find balance with something?
Them: Yeah! All the time. I don't think I'm ever actually in balance, but that's the trick! I don't think true balance can be achieved... well... thinking about it now, it can be achieved, but definitely not maintained for extended periods of time. Life is WAAAAAAAYYY too unpredictable for even the most stable people to maintain balance for long in your life. Balance is more of just a feeling to strive for by consistently checking in with yourself. I literally ask myself all the time "you okay?".
Me: And what do you respond with when you ask yourself "you okay?"
Them: *chuckle* Usually, "You know I'm not", but that actually brings up a great point. I've been trying to change my self check-in from ""You okay?" to "How are we feeling?".
Me: Okay, so what's the difference and what's the answer?
Them: The difference is... tone. "You okay?" is usually asked when I'm clearly not okay and I who the heck wants to hear "You okay?" when you're clearly not. I would just ask myself that when I wasn't, so (at least to me) asking the question basically just upset me more when I was already upset. "How are we feeling?" I can ask myself at any time. When I'm clearly upset, when I'm feeling maybe almost "too good", balance goes both ways, or maybe even just caught up in something or completely spaced out. Like right now. I'm gunna go step away and ask myself that. brb.
*leaves*
Looks like I'm done. As the one asking questions, I have to be ready that the interview could end at any moment, and I have to try and wrap it up however it ends. Thankfully, I was also the one answering my own questions and I can at least tell you that I was pretty good when I went to go check in with myself. I asked the main question "How are we feeling" and most things were pretty good. I went outside away from screens and speakers and realized, I was a lil stiff from sitting down. I did some stretches and I did some kicks and drank a nice beverage while I just talked to myself about my day and other lil thoughts. And then I came back to this. Feeling pretty good. Oh! Stay hydrated!
So that's me and my own VagaBiography, so... hopefully *crosses fingers* I get better with practice and more interesting people that can actually surprise me with their responses, but I did it. I asked the questions, and I wrote down the answers and I got something out of it so maybe you did too. No worries if not. Maybe go interview yourself. Might learn something. Be nice to yourself. You're working hard. You read this far, so... I believe in you.
Take care. ~Enjoy